Capeless Heroes

Hi everyone! Happy Blog day and thank you for coming back! I hope this entry finds you well 🙂 I’m actually drafting this blog a few weeks in advance, (even tho I’m posting this a week late haha) and I can’t tell you how excited I am about all this motivation I’ve had to write. So I’m taking full advantage of it! My first post in roughly 5 months gave me good reason to keep pouring out my heart and using this means of expression to keep connecting with those who may possibly be in the same boat that I am. It’s always such a surprise to me that anyone comes to read these rambles of mine, and for that I’m so very grateful.

I’ve had the subject of this entry swimming around in my mind since I returned from NM to TX at the beginning of May. If you’ve read my entry from July 15th you’ll get a bit more of the back story behind what brings these thoughts I’m going to share to mind so frequently.

In short, sometimes, our entire world as we know it crumbles before our eyes, without even a single warning. For myself, I’ve spent the last 8 years in a relationship, and married for 6 of them, and in an instant it was all over. Life had become comfortable in many ways, and I grew accustomed to the idea that my life would always be a certain way. It’s a little funny how wrong we can be about things we feel so sure of. While my whole world disintegrated around me, I felt terrified of the steps I would need to take to get back on my feet, heal from this situation, and move on with a new concept of life. In a previous post I mentioned how valueable my friendships have proven to be, and just because I can’t quite get over how lucky I am, I’m going to further embellish.

I talked a great deal about my trip home recently, and mentioned how the time spent with family and friends revived my spirit and made me feel whole again. It’s crazy to me, yet amazing, how deep connections can withstand the test of time and distance and just when the time is right those connections are worth their weight in gold. Life has a way of showing you who’s really in your corner when you’re taking blow after blow, and I know better now than I have ever in my life, who the true gems are. When I was home I struggled to keep myself together emotionally, and mentally I was just as much all over the place if not more. I sat with so many people, and felt allowed- as well as encouraged, to let out all that I was carrying. Many of my friends and family sat thru my blubbering moments of sobbing, offered comfort, and helped me see things from a new perspective. I’ve learned over time, that I’ve been so truly blessed, to be surrounded with people who aren’t made uneasy by feelings, and are quick to soothe a friend in need. Without these moments and these people, I don’t know how I would have managed through all of these internal battles. One is never truly alone when your life is full of people like these. So if you happen to be reading these words, and we spent time together when I came home, please know how much your love and comfort mended this heart back together. Thank you for the talks, meals, drinks, laughs, ugly cries, hugs, drives, and smoke sessions, I truly have the best people to run to when shit falls apart. I love you so much for that and so much more <3

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