Busy Mind, Full Heart

Hello Hello, long time no post. I won’t go on about why I have been away, but I will say that I have had a lot to process and move through in the time off.

I’ve been writing a lot lately, there’s been an abundance of thoughts swirling through my mind the past several months, and while I have content to offer, I should mention that the current passages I’ve penned are a bit different from the posts I’ve brought to you previously.

A lot has been taking place in my world, and recently something devastating has come into my realm that’s really shook me up (I’ll likely have a lot more to say about that in the near future). I had a much needed, wonderful chat with a dear friend yesterday after taking a few days to process some incredibly difficult news. This friend has been close to my soul since our first meeting almost 20 years ago. The way we converse and how our thought processes often align has always been medicinal to the way my mind tends to work.

Yesterday we spoke about a number of things, and overall the conversation we had sparked some thoughts I’ve been stirring with for well over a decade now. I realized in this conversation that I have a way with how I view people, how I honor, admire, and adore the people I chose to have in my life. It’s often been mistaken for deeper emotional and even sometimes considered “inappropriate” connections to the people close to me. I tend to love my people exuberantly, I cherish their raw beautiful souls, and I feed off the energetic magnificence of their spirits, which is also why I gush and pour so much love back into these people. I find so much gratitude in my heart for the blessings I’ve come across, walking around on 2 feet with so much wisdom and generosity to give. It’s one of the things I enjoy most about being alive… So I wrote a little something that gives tribute to that perspective.

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I fall in love with people all the time. When I say that, what I mean is I fall in love with each person’s humanity, bittersweet insanity, the wounds that dress their soul in all its beauty. It’s the moment you catch someone in an involuntary happy dance, the glimmer in their eyes at the sight of something they love, the way their lips curve upwards when a grin overtakes their face. It’s witnessing the gentle love toward an infant, one’s kindness toward others, and the tender embrace of lovers. I easily find so much to love about a person and it usually happens within minutes… it’s crazy how quickly I can fall in love. And I mean love in one of the many ways it happens to exist…. love in its purest and most vulnerable form. A love that truly sees, genuinely appreciates, and gifts itself through a human soul to others. The love that acknowledges the way our spirits are webbed together in the deepest dimensions of the universe, how we have so much more in common than not. How similar delights in life make the heart pound, one’s breath quicken, and eyes dilate. The way we seek to love and be loved…

But it’s not only the things that appear wonderful that make me swoon, but also the distinguished beauty of a weathered soul. The strength that allows one to continue to hold space for hope, faith, and love when the world and people around them have given them every reason to lose that ability, or refuse to offer their precious energy to optimism. I tend to fall in love with the unwavering courage it takes to choose to see the silver lining behind every storm, even when the forecast hasn’t called for sunshine in decades… it’s knowing that it can’t rain forever, and cherishing the nourishment a storm can bring while they await the sun. It isn’t just in the way that they hold space for themselves, but also in how they give such grace and tenderness to those they encounter.

I love finding connection and vulnerability in a kindred spirit, it’s as if the divine spirit brings those encounters to you in the moments you need them most. Epiphanies born from deep conversations, validation of the struggle through the human experience, and a moment to feel a new level of intimacy through a common ground of openness. A moment to feel less alone, and more visible, to share that moment with another individual on their own journey of joy and pain. The gift of healing that exists in these encounters and the opportunity to let the soul evolve and the heart to be elevated. A time in which souls transcend to a place where this love awaits those brave enough to enter through the door…. A place where there is no separation, where we exist as one…. Where we exist as LOVE <3